“A man who has blown all his options can’t afford the luxury of changing his ways. He has to capitalize on whatever he has left, and he can’t afford to admit — no matter how often he’s reminded of it — that every day of his life takes him farther and farther down a blind alley… Very few toads in this world are Prince Charmings in disguise. Most are simply toads… and they are going to stay that way… Toads don’t make laws or change any basic structures, but one or two rooty insights can work powerful changes in the way they get through life. A toad who believes he got a raw deal before he even knew who was dealing will usually be sympathetic to the mean, vindictive ignorance that colors the Hell’s Angels’ view of humanity. There is not much mental distance between a feeling of having been screwed and the ethic of total retaliation, or at least the random revenge that comes with outraging the public decency.”
Although there are some deep seeded things that we all deal with in life, the basic of human survival is realizing then when we realize that we’re behaving like a toad, we have to take the steps to change ourselves in the the “charming” person we want to be. To expect the rest of the world to cater to you and make you who you want to be is asinine. The aspect of taking the path you want, because you know what’s best for you and not exactly what’s expected is taking a path that will lead you away from those dark alleys.
In a life full of dark alleys and dead end roads, there aren’t many times that I throw up my hands and ask for help. My road map has been littered with misdirection, although there are many people who love and care enough to try to fix my map.
I figured it out though, I was holding the map upside down the entire time. It just took me acting like a toad trying to kiss myself into being charming. Without proper outcome, of course I turned mean, vindictive and distant.
I now want to start a motorcycle gang, and instead of mimicking the The Hells Angels, I’m going to call us “Charming Toads”. It’s never too late to turn around and take a different road.